Jake and School! :)

March 5, 2015

Just another day today, I called my school’s Finance Department today and my counseling and MPN are still being processed. The woman I talked to said that it would be tomorrow that it would be ready. I hate waiting. I have been working on this stuff for about 3 weeks now and I just want to know already.

I am set to start on April 6th and I want to have my 2 weeks in by March 25th at the latest.

I have a hard time keeping my patience when it comes to things like this. It is one of my worst qualities I used to be a lot worse but, as I got older I have realized that most people are just trying to do their job as well as they can. That’s all I can ask for.

Meanwhile, I learned how to arm knit. It is so fun and only takes about ½ an hour so I may have to start crocheting other things to pass the time. I won’t have as much free time as I do now but at least I will be free weekends and every other Friday. Yay!!

I am getting more excited as time goes on, I just don’t want to feel as disappointed as I am every month when my period comes and I know I am not pregnant. I don’t want to be let down that way, it is one of the worst feelings in the world. Another thing that the woman from my school told me today is that there is a really good chance that I will get what I am hoping for! That would be extra money in my grant checks to pay my bills, so we are crossing our fingers.

As far as Jake goes, he is still doing very well! Tuesday was the only exception to that. He has a guest teacher, they have a time when they all sit on a rug and listen to the teacher tell a story or work with them on their sight words, Jake decided he didn’t want to listen and lay down on the rug. The teacher told him to get up and he said no, she told him again and he got mad and ran away to hide in his cubby (locker). She gave him a color turn because he refused and then ran away. When I asked why he got the color turn he lied. So that resulted in him being in a timeout for the rest of the night.

Some people have told me that making him stand in the corner is mean and the government considers it child abuse. Honestly, I have never heard that and my fiancé and I both agree that we would rather he stood in the corner for 3 hours instead of being spanked. It is a lot less painful. I don’t care what anyone thinks of our parenting, pertaining to my previous posts about my fiancé’s family in case you are wondering what I am talking about. All it does is create drama that I am not interested in.

This is the way I see it. If someone has a valid point to make then bring it to me calmly and as an adult. If you come at me with attitude like you are accusing I will cast you away, I promise you that!

Back on point, Jake has been doing a lot better the past two weeks. He got very close to getting 5 greens in a row last week and blowing it because he decided he didn’t want to listen in music class.

He also recently got a WWE beanie from me and his dad for being so good, it has been below zero for the past few days and he lost it. As well as his Superman gloves and one of the camouflage ones his Auntie gave him. He hasn’t gotten to play outside all week because of it. But, I believe he will find all of them he does this a lot!

But, I need to get back to work and finish up.

Thanks for reading! XO

Jake and School! :)

The Clouds Break!! Hallelujah!

February 25, 2015

I have been so busy the past few weeks that it has escaped me completely to write down my thoughts. Jake has been so good lately too. I think his phase has passed, he has been so sweet lately. Being good and loving everyone and everything. He has been eating a lot more too. I wonder if it is possible for growth spurts to be the reason his demeanor has changed seeing as he grew a few inches in the last two months. He has been doing all his school work the last few days, and he said that Kahn, the boy who he has been getting in trouble with, was bothering him on the bus and he ignored him completely because he didn’t want to get into trouble. We are so proud of him. We went out to dinner for Nana’s birthday last night and he got cake and ice cream when we got home. He’s had treats all week and I am just so glad that we aren’t having any more bad behavior from him!

As far as myself going to school, I had a tour of the school on Monday and I love it! I know beauty school is considered cliché but I am so interested in doing hair and makeup, plus the school I am going to teaches nails too. As a woman who loves getting her nails done that really excites me.

At first, I was nervous, trying to catalog in my head everything I had to get done. But it took me literally a day to finish. I had to file an application for Fafsa and it took me only a little over an hour, I am waiting to hear results. If all goes well and they agree to give me grants for my bills I will be there full time. No more answering phones (well, the occasional one at the front desk), no more being bored, and trying my hardest to find something to do all day. I will be on my feet and able to lose weight again like I wanted to before. I am just really excited now, if all goes well I will be starting on April 6th. This Momma will officially be a college student! And I am determined to finish. I am the second in my immediate family to go to college but I will be the first to graduate! I will not give up and I will see it through to the end!

Daddy has my back 100% too and I really appreciate that! There aren’t many men who will stand by your side no matter what you do. None I have dated anyway.  He is worried about one thing. If they don’t agree to give me grants to pay bills then I can’t quit my job and go to school. I will be stuck here. I am a little worried about that too so I am trying not to get my hopes up too much, what if they don’t help me? I don’t want to be stuck doing something I don’t like forever. It is so hard to find a job around here unless you have some kind of college degree.

But, I am holding out hope. I don’t want to think about the negative too much. I am the type of person who worries way too much about the outcome of things. I worry so much it makes me sick sometimes. It runs in my family. But I have some work to do so I will probably write some more later. I am thinking about doing something a little differently that what I have been here. Nothing too dramatic of a change, just something different.

Thanks for reading! XO

The Clouds Break!! Hallelujah!